Several Steps Behind


one thing I know that's certain is that I'll stand up again
& let my work become my meditation
if you don't see what I've done then it means I'm a success
if you succeed that's cause for celebration
you thank me for my efforts & I bow & carry on
& hope to never speak the words I smother
for I have read this prophecy as plainly as your face
& know that you are destined for another

some are meant for greatness, some are meant for fame
some will give their lives for those who never know their names
some spend their existence calmly waiting in the wings
some will struggle well but some are meant for other things
I chose my fate the moment that I looked into your eyes
I put all other thoughts out of my mind
& all that you must do outweighs the dreams I have displaced
so I will follow you, several steps behind

I tell myself that everything I feel for you is pure
I don't expect the world to understand it
to act on these emotions would be blasphemy at worst
at best it would be cheap & underhanded
& in our final moments if I cannot hold my tongue
you'll smile & you'll pretend you didn't hear me
so that is why I'm leaving you to face your joy alone
I know what I will do if you stay near me

some are meant for greatness, some are meant for fame
some will give their lives for those who never know their names
some will keep their kindness though the world has clipped their wings
some will rise above but some are meant for other things
you ordered me to look up but I was still looking down
please know you've not been anything but kind
but I've concealed these shadows much too long to do what's right
& they still follow me, several steps behind

Year 5 of Babylon5_love brings me to Lennier.
Not sure what to think of this character anymore.
Some sympathy, but mostly pity because things didn't need to end for him the way they did,
and it's his own fault.

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